So, I haven't posted here for a very long time.
I've been avoiding my mind as much as humanly possible, lately. Not that easy, as it turns out.
I've had a lot going on in RL. Yes, I know, we all have a lot going on in RL, but I guess it had started to get to me a little.
I was in the very fortunate position of having two job offers on the table. One with my existing employer, and one with a client who I've worked closely with for a couple of years. Both positions had their positives, and both had negatives too. It's been a really difficult decision.
Now, those of you that have tuned in before, will know that I am no stranger to overthinking. So, obviously I've played out every possible scenario of accepting and declining both positions, everything I could conceive of, in my tiny mind.
As a huge fan of the disaster movie genre, I've realised that I am also a huuuuuge catastrophiser. Great word, huh? I see every worst case scenario possible. EVERYTHING! If it COULD happen, it WILL happen. At the very least... in my head.
Anyway, long story short... I finally declined the position with my client, at the end of last week. He was really nice about it, looks forward to continuing to work together closely, and has said if I change my mind, to let him know. Pretty much the perfect scenario... who would've thought?
Today, I accepted the position with my current employer. It's more responsibility, more line management, more travel, more strategic thinking... and yes, more money. Actually the money isn't my motivation, I just hate the idea who else might get the job if I don't accept it! LOL
I'm nervous, thrilled, terrified... and most of all excited!
Now then, Jason, in the famous words of Mama Ru... Don't fuck it up!
Thanks for tuning in to another "thrilling" instalment of blah blah blah...
Jay <3
